Brutal!

Just did my workout. Did it a bit earlier b/c DH is home on most weekends and I don't like working out in front of him. He's outside mowing the lawn so thought I'd use that oppurtunity to get it done lol.

I can't help it, I get embarassed and feel even more awkward if I know someone is watching.

Anywho, tried to do more of the stuff today like they do it. Like the jumping jacks and these lunge jump things. Hard to do them when you have big boobs and a stomach that flops around all over the place when you're jumping.
I couldn't keep it up, but I did some, so that's something at least.
I also couldn't do all of the abs today. Felt like I did the regular crunch better, but my abs are still feeling it from the other day and I just didn't have the strength for it.
I mean come on, even if I could do them all, all the time, not like you'd be able to see my 4 pack or whatever through the keg I'm carrying :P lol
It was rough today though trying to do more. Def sweating a whole lot more and got out of breath a lot quicker.


Oh and I still didn't sleep well. Didn't help that DH fell asleep on the couch. For some reason, I get really paranoid when he's not in bed before me. I was super tired when I went to bed, but still laid there awake. Fricking 30yo woman afraid of the things that go bump in the night if DH isn't laying next to me. SIGH.
He did eventually come to bed about an hour later and I fell right to sleep. Didn't want to wake up though.

Weird dream

Just have to get this down before I forget.

The dream was set in modern times,  but it was fantasy. Like a Jason and the Arganauts.
There was a guy that could disappear, and there was a cyclops that kicked ass.
Well, I was with the hero (I'm a teenage black chick). Can't remember who it was, some black dude. We were chasing after the guy that could disappear b/c he stole something from us. We're in this old run down building, chasing him up stairs, and right before he could disappear, the hero snatches back the item we wanted back.
We start rushing up the stairs b/c we're also getting chased.
We reach this big studio like space. And that's when the cyclops gets to us. He's hell bent on getting back the item and just starts wailing on the hero. The hero is doing a great job defending himself though.
And for some reason, I find a huge bag of dog food to protect myself with lol.
Well the cyclops sees that he's not really getting anywhere beating on the hero. So he says something about doing something to what he loves, and then starts to beat the snot out of me.
I'm the typical weakling damsel so I can't really defend myself against the barrage of punches.
The hero finally gets the cyclops guy off of me and beats him up some and makes him run away.
But I'm already traumitized from the beating and sobbing like crazy.

There might've been more but that's all I can remember.

I had a few other strange dreams too. Like dreaming that I was on a school field trip in New York. We were all crammed in to this tiny little hotel room but we were all having a blast just looking out the window at the great view we had. Then something happened that I don't remember, but we came back to the room and it was already morning and none of the kids had gotten any rest. Guess that wasn't so strange lol.

Also had another dream where DH and I were with my brother and his family, and we were telling them that we were going to Disney World that weekend b/c during a certain time, admission was only going to be $7. And we told them that they were coming lol.

Man...

I just totally erased all that good I did eating dinner and then having some dessert lol.
I was doing so well with my food, and then BAM, here comes the take out Chinese food.
Sigh... it was so good though damnit. Can I help it if I enjoy food??
I hate those people that say to eat only for energy and blahblah bullshit. There's no reason not to enjoy what you're eating, and to eat what you want... ya just have to learn how to moderate, which well I obviously haven't learned yet lol.


Hrmm...... do I post too much? I mean I really don't have anything to talk about, but it seems like I post a hellava lot. That's what blogs are for though right? heh


Just went to a site called phord.com? You put in your stats and then it tells you how many calories you should be eating a day. Mine is 1700 cals a day. I think I can do that. Maybe even less. Going to have to look up some foods that I like that I'll be able to eat. It also said that I could be losing up to 2lbs a week. That's awesome if I could do that. Of course I'd love to lose more but I'll take what I can get heh.
Going to have to clean out the fridge though. Have a feeling I'm going to be eating a lot more fruits and veggies and we just don't have a lot of room in the fridge for all of that.
I'm sure there's plenty in there that I can toss in the trash though and free up some room.

Day 2 Power 90

Just got done taking my shower after power 90.
Did the 1-2 Sculpt. Kicked my butt but it feels good.
I get why people like exercising, but nope, still not for me.

I didn't do the lunges. Just did some extra squats instead. I just don't have the form or balance to do lunges.
Also did wall pushups. Obviously not as hard, but you start far enough away, it starts to get difficult pushing yourself back off the wall.
I also couldn't do the chair dips. It works out the back of the arms and there's just no way. At least not yet.

My lazy self was trying to get out of working out, but I did it. Woot :)

Feeling a bit bleh

Woke up feeling fine. Watered the plants, sat down at the computer and now my abs are aching. It's not bad enough to keep me from exercising though thankfully.

Feeling tired again though. I slept better, but I'm starting to sleep longer and not feeling as rested. Not sure why but I don't like this at all.

Going to do Power 90 weight training today. There are a lot of lunges and pushups in that shit though. I'm not doing the lunges. Going to do squats instead, and pushups, I'll do wall pushups. I can't do a regular or girly style.

Joined a site called Calorie Count. Want to keep track of what I'm eating better.
Had 2 boiled eggs and a can of tuna fish w/ a tablespoon of mayo. All of that equaled to about 365 calories. Not bad. Would've been under 300 if I hadn't had the mayo. That tbs was 90 calories! Crazy.. and I love mayo too damnit. SIGH.
If I have this again, I'll leave out the mayo. Just sprinkle it all with some salt and pepper.

YAY!

Ok so today feels like the first official first day since I actually got in a really good workout.
I did Power 90 Sweat + Ab Ripper.
There are 2 parts to Power 90, the 1-2 circuit, and then the 3-4... of course I'm starting off with the 1-2.

I still can't do some of the stretches and the power yoga. I'm just not flexible and with my T-Rex arms, I just don't have reach either so that doesn't help. Hopefully one day, but right now... no way.

Also there's this move that they start off with. You just bring your knees up one at a time. Sounds and looks easy enough, that is until you're actually doing them!
My upper thighs right by my hips start to ache like crazy. It is SO difficult to keep going when your body is screaming at you to stop.

Thankfully the end of the sweat routine is punching stuff. That stuff makes you sweat, but doesn't make you ache so it's a nice rest.

The ab ripper. I tried doing them all but I can not do that bicycle move or the full body one. Hell, I can barely do a regular crunch. I don't think I'm doing a lot of them quite right b/c I didn't feel that ache like I was supposed to. Just hoping that will get better with time as well.

I still hate exercising, but finishing it and knowing I did it feels fantastic.

Tired... so tired....

So lets try this again shall we!
ZGoing to do some Power 90 today. Need to look up something motivating though b/c I'm feeling tired and pretty low right now.
I didn't sleep well at all last night and that lack of a restful sleep is hitting me right now.

Mushroom lit

DH found some batteries for the little mushroom light.

It's really cute lit up. I think I will buy more. Not right now, but def later.

Nursery

I started buying stuff for the nursery. Well, the eventual nursery.

Not sure if I mentioned this or not, but it's going to be like a forest fantasy theme.

I plan on making a quilt with a little castle on it, and painting a huge mural on the walls and decorating it all in fantasy stuff.

My first purchase was this little mushroom light. It's one that needs batteries, and turns on when you press down on it. I thought it would go great with the theme.

I found this photo while looking for something. I can't remember what. But I REALLY like the faux tree bookshelf. I just absolutely love that it has a little hidey hole at the bottom of it and it's amazing. I would love to do something like this for the room as well and think it would really help to bring everything alive.

I bought a piggy bank last night. It's not exactly fantasy, but I thought it was super cute anyway and think it'll look just fine with the theme.

I won't spoil what it is. It's being sent from Taiwan so probably won't be here for a while.

Day 1 photos..... UUUUGH

So, I figured since I was going to start this seriously... I'd take and post up day 1 photos. BLEH. I hate having my photo taken, nm ones showing how fat I am!

Here they are though.

My ass actually looks like it has gotten smaller. Still pops out which I don't mind. But that stomach. Good lord that is the bane of my existance! It's a fairly new development. I always had a pooch, that area right below your belly button but right above your pubic area... that part has always been kinda pudgy, but everything else was ok... and then it just slowly but surely started to get bigger. I read that that's common with PCOS. Sigh, I remember when my boobs stuck out more than my stomach... oh to be back to that....
And I hate my arms as well. They're HUGE and I hate it b/c I don't feel comfortable wearing women's tees. ALL women's tees have these short little sleeves, and yeah that's just not happening.

Anywho, here it is.... pls ignore the smudged up spotted mirror.... and I just noticed that I forgot to put my rings back on.