Monday, April 11, 2011

Mystery probably solved

Mystery of why my calves hurt like a SoB.
I wore my vibrams (toe shoes) to the flea market that day! Even though I was JUST walking, I guess walking differently in those shoes did something. I mean I've worn them out before, but never for that long and doing that much walking.
Seems to be a pretty common occurance for people that use the shoes for the first time to run in.

SO yep..... not pregnancy related unfortunatly ;) Lets hope that temp dip is though!

Found a great website that shows the differences in running w/ regular shoes, running w/ the vibrams and running barefoot w/ slow motion videos.
I found it pretty interesting. If any of you are runners or know runners that don't already have vibrams, maybe mention it to them :D
http://www.runblogger.com/2009/12/vibram-fivefingers-and-barefoot-running.html

Tests and a whole mess load of photos

So... let the obsessing begin! Thought I could hold it off until tomorrow, but I had a slight temp drop today at possible 7dpo, so you know what that means. All of my thoughts have been "OMG is this implantation dip? I wonder when I'll get a + hpt if it is!?" SIGH
I'm really trying not to get my hopes up but it's difficult.

Hpt today... I'm calling it a negative. There's a hint of the ever so faintest line, but it is barely there, so just saying it's neg. Hoping it will start to get darker again and continue getting darker this time!

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Next up, some more photos! Not of bunnies, but of the other animals that they have up there.
We'll start off with the chickens first.

This is a photo of the big chicken area that DH's uncle and aunt built with scrap parts. It's not pretty but it keeps the chickens safe, gives them shelter, and gives them a lot of space to move around.

A few photos of their chickens. They're spoiled rotten. They treat them as pets, which I think is great. They're friendly little birds and come right up to you if you get close. Of course they're probably just wanting some food but still lol.
They had one die recently. It was another brown colored one. They're hoping it's not a contagious disease but just in case have been giving the chickens antibiotics.

Here's MiL's rooster that always hangs around trying to find a way inside. He's a gorgeous fella. If they ever did want to breed, he'd be a good candidate.


Another one of MiL's roosters. This one... from the neck down is pretty lol. It's not diseased or anything, these are just the way they look with the naked bare necks. He didn't care about the chickens in the shelter, he was following his own women :P

Random caterpillar that I saved from getting turned in to chicken food.

One of the sweetest cats ever. He LOVES attention and doesn't bother any of the animals. I think when they moved up to this property, he decided they looked like good people and moved in with them :P lol


Minature goats. They're not very small, but I guess compared to regular ones they are. I think they had all of their males fixed, so no more babies :(


Guineas! Very noisy birds that didn't want me coming anywhere near them lol.

Turkeys. They used to have more, but their untrained dogs have killed plenty of them. Their dogs... UGH don't get me started.


Pigs. One is a regular pig that they were raising for food. They had another large one that they did slaughter, and even though to this day (years later), MiL still talks about how awesome it was, she doesn't want to kill this one b/c she felt so bad about the last one, so it's now a pet along witht he other animals.
The other pig is a mix between a regular pig and a pot belly that someone gave to them when they couldn't take care of it. They used to have 2 more pot belly pigs. One gotten the same way, and the other given as a gift, but both of them died fairly recently.


Drool spot from one of MiL's dogs that got out of the fence. Sigh.... I was grossed out more by this than the bunny pee.

The dog that did it. He's a sweet dog, don't get me wrong, but BLEH. He's known to roll in some disgusting stuff.
He's the sibling of our black dog Kiwi.


And finally some questionable looking plants. They have a problem with drug dealers in their area. Specially ones that use their dirt road through their property. I don't think this is what it resembles, but with the people in the area... ya never know.


Sunday, April 10, 2011

Get ready for the Awwwwws!

Another day with the inlaws. We took DH's older sister shoe shopping. We were supposed to buy her shoes, but she snuck by us and bought her own. DH is probably just going to give her some money though. He didn't buy her or her husband anything for their wedding.

So yeah, we met them for lunch when we picked her up. They were eating at a Chinese fast food place that has THE best eggrolls ever. Even though we had eaten before we left, we splurged a little and got an eggroll each. I ate a little more than half of mine then gave the rest to DH.

After shoe shopping, we went to inlaws land to hang out and see the new little bunnies. OMG they're SOOOOOO adorable!!!
Their feet were covered in PP, but I didn't care lol.
The little white one is the most curious out of them. The 2 brown ones are still very timid and scared when you hold them. When I held the white one, it kept trying to make snacks out of my fingers :P
Also took some photos of the chicks they (uncle and aunt) got about a month ago, and the new ones they bought the previous day.

First up, chickens!
The older ones, then the lil babies :D They have the older ones completely spoiled. They come out of their cage and will perch on their hands. Really cute.
Not sure why the 2 little ones closed their eyes when I wanted to take their photo. Guess they somehow knew there would be a flash to blind them :P lol

And the bunnies!!! They're called Lionhead Rabbits. Lots and lots of adorably soft floofy adorableness!!


And finally the 3rd bunny and the nice little spot of PP on my pants lol Oh well... I didn't care. I was too concerned about the cuteness to give a 2nd thought to some bunny PP.



I have more photos that I'll share tomorrow :)

We had dinner there. They were nice enough to fix some options that DH and I could have. They grilled some pork loin and pork chops (I had a pork chop). DH's aunt sauted some brussel sprouts. I think she used butter, but oh well. Little bit of butter is ok.
And she fixed a great salad with a mix of a lot of veggies.
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Oh and in ladybits news.... I started feeling REALLY wet at around 6pm tonight. Didn't notice anything except for a little bit of the suppository gunk when I used the bathroom, so *shrugs* Thought I'd mention it anyway.

Grr, what's wrong now?

Yesterday when I was helping DH hang some stuff up, my calves started to cramp. We were walking around for a little bit at the flea market with family, but it wasn't anything strenuous. Woke up today with my calves aching and sore. No idea what is wrong but, BLEH annoying!

Anywho!
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Today's tests. OPK is a lot lighter finally. Still a line on the HPT. It's getting fainter though. I think it will be there tomorrow and be gone by Tuesday. Well, hoping to start getting a real + by then but ya know heh

Can't say I've been really feeling anything.
I've been getting some very minor aches on my left O area, but can't say if it is def the O and it's not a constant thing either so *shrugs*
Hoping that means no cysts. If gawd forbid, this cycle is a bust, I want to get right back in it.
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Food for the past 2 days has been terrible! Dieting + family does not mix well at all! As I mentioned we went to the flea market with DH's family yesterday, then went out to eat with them for lunch. The meal wasn't the bad part, it was the sugary awesomely tasty tea. But anywho.... we had a good dinner so at least it wasn't a totally awful day.

Dinner was baked chicken again with a salad. I put some guacamole on mine. I'm not a big guacamole eater or anything, but I bought some Wholly(sp?) stuff and needed to use it b/c it's expiration is tomorrow :P lol
Not too bad though. It's spicy and pretty tasty. Kinda weird texture with a salad, but whatever.
Chicken was seasoned with garlic powder, seasoning salt, coconut oil, black pepper.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

3lbs!

Just 3lbs to go for my first weight goal! At least that's according to the scale this morning.
Even with the cheat dinner last night (and awesome dessert), I still came in at 202.8! WOO! I just drop the .whatever, so 202. YAY! Was expecting it to be back up to 206 or something. *happy dance*
I know I would already be there if I just exercised, but damn I'm lazy!
My tracker says 2lbs but 3lbs to get to 199 is what I want :D
I was planning on doing some rowing machine, but what we ordered hasn't arrived yet b/c apparently FedEx SUCKS.
We were supposed to get it Wed. It's only coming from GA, and we're in SC. That takes what, a DAY... and it has had "In Transit" since Tuesday with the estimated delivery date that was up, now gone. Such complete bullshit!
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Anywho... here are today's tests
Line still visible but slowly disappearing. OPK is usually a lot lighter by now, but it's still hanging in there. Looks a lot darker IRL than it does in photos.

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Oh speaking of dinner last night.... we went to Texas Roadhouse. It's FiL's birthday today so went out last night with family to where he wanted to go. Was still OK with what I got except for mashed potatoes (which were yummy) and ranch and chedder cheese on my salad. After dinner, we went to Rush's and got a hot fudge cake sundae.
Anyways, we of course were sitting at a table with SiL, her husband, and DH's older sister who is in town for a little while.
I couldn't really hear anything so even if she did say something stupid, I didn't hear it thank gawd.
I did however hear one part of their convo. Preggo SiL started talking about how far along she is. It just made me really sad hearing about it b/c we would've been exactly the same. It didn't ruin my night or anything, but I did get jealous and sad for myself. SIGH
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I couldn't sleep for shit last night. Kept waking up and not able to get back to sleep. Finally woke up at about 3:30, slept on and off for a while and finally got up and laid on the couch to see if that would help. Nope :(
I'm ok right now but I know I'll pay for it later.
HCG dreams were all over the place last night. Only one I really remember is the last one. Older SiL, Uncle and Aunt (the ones that have the chickens) had come over. I was just getting up from bed, made my way in to the living room where SiL was playing a video game. Uncle was playing on computer, so I went out back to see what DH and aunt were doing.
DH had planted pine trees in my garden for some reason and was really doing a number on the soil. Digging it up and piling it.
Aunt was helping him but she was tired and resting.
I come out and suddenly, he announces that there are baby alligators in the garden. I'm all like "WTF?" b/c our back yard is fenced in and we aren't close to water. I mean there are small ponds and lakes around our neighborhood, but we're not really close to them.
So I come closer and see that he's holding one. Of course I think it's adorable, but DH hadn't noticed all of the others in the soil he had just been digging up. Lots of dead ones that he accidently killed and something was wrong with the one he held b/c it had maggots all over it and there were flies buzzing around everywhere.

So yeah, what started off as a mundane dream ended up a bit gross and depressing.
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And finally! I keep forgetting to mention this but we bought some chickens! Well bought them for DH's uncle and aunt. Won't be getting them until flippin June though b/c they're backordered and even then they'll only be chicks and I think it takes around 5 months before they're grown and start producing.
Oh well.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Get outta my brain!

Still find it so strange how HCG can affect the brain. I'm still having some pretty vivid dreams. Once again I dreamt I was in high school and was running late to class. Blahblahblah happened, and I actually woke up thinking that I was late for school!! I am 31yo, I haven't been in school in forever! lol
Just weird.

Anywho, here are the tests for today :)

The line on the HPT is faint but still there. Hmmm, I'm around 4dpo today..... sigh... I can already feel the anxiety kicking in. Going to read some books or something. Keep me distracted!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Food food, glorious food!

Lunch today was some Boston Butt and an apple

Dinner was Pork baby back ribs. One with just salt, pepper and smoked paprika. The other with a paleo BBQ sauce. I added molassas and honey to it though b/c it didn't taste right lol.
A bit of a cheat b/c of the BBQ sauce, but oh well.
Oh also sauted asparagus, YUM love asparagus!



I dunno but I think the trigger is making me HUNGRY. I can control it, but when I eat, I want to eat A LOT.
Whatever, it can do whatever it wants so long as I get a baby out of it :P lol

*Insert witty title here*

I can never think of what to title my posts... SIGH. I'm Soooooooo not a clever person.

But anywho....
Here are the tests for today. PP was pretty diluted so could be why the HPT is SO light already, or maybe not *shrugs*
My temp was up a little more this morning. 97.86 so yay for that at least. FF has me at 3dpo. I'm either 2 or 3. Hell, maybe even 1, who knows.
I'm not feeling obsessed just yet. I know that's going to change around Monday or Tuesday.
I REALLY hope this pineapple things works... or just SOMETHING works and I get my sticky bean.
I'm so tired of this journey.. I just want to be in the next part already.
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There was a post on forums that I go to that really rang true to me.
The person was talking about what it feels like to m/c so many times.
At first, yes it's heartbreaking when it happens, but you get that sense of hope that "Oh yay! I CAN get pregnant at least."
But any BFP after it is completely changed. You don't feel that pure excitement any longer. The excitement and celebration is replaced by fear and caution.
There was another thread asking how people would announce their BFP. I told the truth.... first one, I gave the onesie and the HPT to DH..... the 2nd time... I just told him nonchalantly, like it wasn't a big deal. I didn't want to celebrate b/c of how the first one ended up. How sad is that?
I'm sure this time will be exactly the same.
Although I have high hopes, there will ALWAYS be that fear that things will go wrong. I don't think it will ever go away until I'm about to pop the baby out of my hooha. I could say I'd be fine when I see the heartbeat, but no.. I probably wouldn't be.

Anyways...... yeah, just had to get that out there. I'm really not feeling negative at this point, but the concern is always there.
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As for my trigger dream. It wasn't sexual tonight. Dreamt I was back in high school and I was in glee club with, yep, the cast from Glee lol. We were headed out of practice and in to another class when all of a sudden, the select "elite" group of singers bust out in to a song leaving the rest of us nobodies just standing there with our thumbs up our butts wondering why we weren't included.
Can't remember the song they were singing.
The dream had more to it than that, but I just thought that was the best part :P

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Weird random update

Went in to the sunroom to let the dogs outside... saw these dark spots all over the carpet. Look around some, see what looks like insect wings all over the window sill. WTH? Look closer at the dark spots.... it's flying ants! A whole mess load of dead or dying flying ants! Over on the other side of the room, there are even more piled up along the wall and under the boxes we keep the dog toys in! Absolutely none on any furniture, just on the carpet and only in that room! So strange.
This has never happened before. No idea why these bugs chose that room to die in and no idea how they even got in in the first place. Maybe a crack in the foundation or something *shrugs*
Oh well, they're all in vacuum heaven now.

Naughty trigger shot!

Ever since getting it, all of my dreams at night have been naughty and vivid!
Crazy what the stuff can do to your brain! lol

Here's the trigger for today. HPT got a lot lighter. OPK is right on the verge of being a neg. The line is still as dark, but just barely.
I'm surprised the trigger shot goes through me so quickly . I'm not complaining though!
Think I'm going to go out and buy a fresh pineapple.
We do have one, but don't think it's ripe. Bi-Lo that's basically across the street has them on sale so think I'm gonna go out and get one if they have any good ones to get.
Erm..... that's about it. I'm about 1dpo today so... yep... have a long wait ahead of me.


EDIT: BLEH, just got back from the store. I swear, what's with farmers picking pineapples before they're ripe?? I mean they're obviously NOT ripe b/c they're still GREEN. UGH. Thankfully there were a few good ones so I got one. Just cut it up and ate some of the core. MUCH MUCH better fresh lol.