Great Concert

So the Weezer concert was pretty great. It was a smallish amphitheater so our seats were pretty great even if we weren't on the floor. They sound really great live.
Learned something new about DH.... he's a WOO'er. lol Every pause, WOOOOOOOO rofl
I'm glad he got to see his fav band perform though. If they come back to the SE again I'm sure we'll be seeing them.
We didn't get home until 3am so yeah, no BDing. We were both just too tired. I think we did as much as we could though. I'm gonna go ahead and say that I O'd yesterday.

Here's a photo of today's tests. Still both strong +'s.

Happy Halloween everyone!!!!!!!!

And it begins

I would've taken some tests yesterday morning but I used the bathroom before I even thought of it heh.
This time around feels different than the others. Well, than the last one.
My nips and breasts are pretty much just starting to get sore. I think they were already sore before I took the trigger last time. Can't remember.
Also, I haven't been getting EWCM. It's been super watery. When we've done it, we start off natural at first, but soon after have to pull out the preseed to use. Seriously, we start squeaking like rubber on rubber. It's pretty funny but feels awful :P lol
So yeah, not really sure what to make of that. I wish it were EWCM, but I guess gotta take what your body gives ya.
I think we've BD'd enough. We BD'd once on the day of the trigger, and then twice yesterday. May try to do it again tonight when we get home if DH is up for a quickie.

I forgot to take my temp this morning, so no idea if it's up or not. I was getting some O pains, so maybe I ovulated already. Who knows. Maybe it'll be today *shrugs* Either way, hopefully this will be it.

Surprise Trigger!

So, I had my appointment today. Was expecting to see the follicles on my right ovary to be around 12-14mm.
Well nope... most of them were 9-10mm. Boo, BUT one of them was at 24mm!! That was a surprise. I guess it decided to bully all the others and use all of the follistim for itself b/c that sucker was not there on Tuesday. Or if it was, it hid extremely well.
So the PA asked if we wanted to do the trigger there or at home, and I just got it there. We went to the pharmacy to get my progesterone suppositories, went a few other places and came home and BD'd :)
So although I'm disappointed that it's only one, I'm still happy that there's still a chance with the one.

Oh and my lining was at 15mm I think. I don't seem to have a problem with that so if I never mention it, that's why.

Hide & Seek Ovary

So I had my E2 today along with an ultrasound.
My left ovary is still hiding behind bowel. The PA was a lot more gentle than the RE. Probably b/c she's a woman and she knows what it feels like maybe.
Anywho, it looked like my right one is the one that's going to ovulate this cycle. I had a feeling though b/c it's been aching quite a bit.

None of them are very big. there were about 4-6 that were all around the same size. She measured what looked to be the biggest and it was only at 11-12mm.

Got a call back and my E2 is at 281 and my follistim dose is staying the same until Thursday. I keep telling DH we should just bump it to 225, but he says no, to follow what the doc says. BOOO I say! lol
So yep, I don't think I'll be triggering until Saturday. I'm fine with that though. It's not exactly what I wanted, but meh.
And hopefully I'll have at least 3 mature follicles by the time I trigger.
We're probably gonna have to BD as soon as we get home from my appointment then. We're heading out of town for a Weezer concert and won't be back until late and I know DH wouldn't want to do it then after having to drive back home for 3-4hrs. We'll see what happens :)

Halloween masks

Ok so here are 2 of the masks so far. Posted them on the forum I go to and might as well here while I'm thinking about it.

This one is DH's mask. He has to wear his glasses. He might as well be blind without them on. From what he's told me, it's just all a blur. So doing a traditional type of mask was out of the question. So I saw a really cool lower face mask during my google reference searches and thought that it was the perfect thing for DH.
I wanted his to look a bit steampunk. It didn't really end up that way though. Looks more gothic/greek god to me.

Was made from plaster wrap molded to his face. Then I took paper mache clay to sculpt the nose and lips. The cheeks and chin and the ridge of the nose were done with cardstock and hot glue gun glue. I then took regular plaster of paris and to try to make it as smooth as possible. The spikes were bought from http://www.studsandspikes.com/buy/index.php . DH scratched them up to match the mask. It's painted w/ bronze spray paint and then gone over with a brownish/black acrylic paint to give it the old worn antique look.

I have another idea for a lower face mask for him. Got the idea from his playstation magazine. Hope to get it done before this weekend.

And this is my mask. Well, one of them at least. I love zombies, even though I'm terrified of the idea of zombies lol, so it was only natural for me to make myself a zombie mask.

I wanted it to be gorey and different. I love the worm out of the head idea so I had to do that.

It was molded to my face using plaster wrap. The worm was made w/ aluminum foil glued to the foundation of the mask and then put plaster wrap around it. The details of the jagged edges were done w/ cardstock glued to the mask and then w/ plaster wrap to make it sturdier. It was all painted w/ acrylics. The blood oozing is puffy shirt paint. And then finally I got a high gloss paint to go over the bloody parts to make it look wet.

Thinking about doing my face up as well. I have some scar wax and tooth enamel stuff I want to use to really jack my face up lol.

I have another mask I'm almost done with for myself. It's steampunk-ish. Not done with it just yet, but will be soon. I'll post that later.

Meh, not bad

So i had my 3rd E2 today. It came back at 116. Not too bad. At least it's going up I guess. Have a feeling I'll only have 1 mature follie when I trigger. Won't be happy about that, but not much I can do about it.
My follistim dose was upped to 200 and I'll be doing that until Tuesday.
We shuld be going in Monday but DH has to take our truck in for maintenance and who the hell knows how long that will take.
So tuesday I'll go in for another E2 draw and an ultrasound. Hoping it'll show a couple of follicles growing.

On a lighter note

I'm feeling better today. I'm still frustrated about the whole dose thing but I'm over feeling SO extremely pissed over it.

Anywho, I just woke up and wanted to try on a couple pairs of pants that I could never wear b/c they were too tight.
These were pants that I had gotten at Old Navy I think 3 years ago. Maybe even longer. Both are size 18 but they run VERY small. I dunno who the hell sizes these things but they were severely wrong with these 2 pants.
Anywho. I have the bad habit of not trying on clothes before getting them, and that's what happened here.
I just got them.
BIG mistake. Brought them home and I remember not even being able to get one pair over my ass, and the other pair buttoned and zipped.
I just tried both of them on, one of them is still SUPER tight on the waist (the one I couldn't get over my ass), BUT I could button and zip it up. I just dunno if I could bend over in them for fear of popping the buttons lol. I wonder what the real size of those are. I may whip out the measuring tape to see.
And the other pair I got on with absolutely no problem.
Boy that felt great!!

Gawd Damnit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so flippin angry and frustrated with my RE right now.
My E2 came back 73 today. Instead of upping my follistim dose by 50, they only upped it by 25.
I am so fucking pissed off.
What the fuck was all the talk about upping it more, and getting me to O sooner when they're not even fucking doing it????????????????????????????
What the fuck is the gawd damn point if they're not going to follow through with what they fucking told us???
I know I said I would do 19 fucking days again just to have a chance, and I would, but the hell if I'm going to be fricking happy about it.

It just feels like they want to drag this shit out. Get out every cent they can out of us. I know I'm probably just overreacting right now. At least we can do the injections and all of that, but sigh, just so disappointed is all. Sigh, stupid me for getting my hopes up I guess. I just better have at least 3 follicles by the end of this shit. I'm going to be pissed if it's just 1 again.

Sorry for all of the F-bombs and whatnot, but I'm too angry to not cuss up a storm.

Oh and my weight

My weight has been slowly going down. I'm at 213 now. I seem to have been losing about a pound a week. Not too shabby for doing absolutely nothing lol. I was at 212 on Sunday, but then on monday it was 213 again. Oh well.
BUT I think my weight is going to go back up this week. We'll see what happens.

OOOOOO I think I may be close to going down a pants size! WOOOOOO
It's been getting colder here, so I pulled out some pants to wear. Both pants are really loose.
One pair is corderoy... these pants used to fit me really well. Just a snug comfortable fit. And now they practically fall off of me. I don't think I'm quite there yet to go down a size, but maybe soon. Well, that is if I don't get pregnant soon. I'd more than gladly stay in big clothes and maternity stuff if it means I'll have a LO :D

150u

So yep, I had my E2 draw yesterday. It came back as a 63, so my follistim dose was upped to 150.
I was a bit disappointed that it wasn't upped more.
It will be quicker this time, but really only b/c I started off at 100. So hell, instead of 19 days I'll just go 15 again. BLEH I hope not.
Hmm lets see, last time, I started off on 75u on cd3. They do the first dose until cd7 when they test E2 for the first time. Then my dose was only upped to 100u. Then 2 days later, they started upping it by 50u instead of just 25.
So yeah.... since they're upped it by 50u to begin with, HOPEFULLY I'll respond sooner. Damn I really want to be in the TWW next week.

I think I've FINALLY stopped bleeding. I didn't think it would end. At first I thought yesterday would be it, but then I started passing small red clots when I used the bathroom. But it may hve stopped today. Can't be sure just yet, but I'm hoping.

I have been feeling some cramping down there. Mainly in the O areas. FX that its my ovaries producing some great follicles.


And offtopic. Mask I'm working on it meh, ok. Wish I could've gotten it as smooth as I had wanted, but oh well. Too late now. I've already painted it and started adding the details on to it lol. It doesn't look bad, just not what I was hoping for.

Baseline

So I had my baseline done this morning. Would've posted sooner but internet has been screwing up all day today. Sigh.

Anywho, everything looked good. The RE did my ultrasound and man it hurt like hell. He couldn't find my left ovary and kept pressing and pressng and the pain was seriously awful. It took all of my strength to stay still and not cry out. It hurt so damn bad.
Thankfully he finally stopped though.

So yep, DH just did my first shots this cycle. The 100u follistm and 10u micro HCG. The RE said that we'll probably up my dose by a greater amount so I won't go 19 days again lol. God I hope it won't take that long, but we'll see I guess.

Oh and I know I haven't posted photos of the masks yet. I did finish the girly one but I don't like it at all. I dunno, just what I drew and imagined isn't what I created lol. It's just not what I wanted. But oh well, it'll look alright hanging on the wall at least lol.
I'm making another though. I'm waiting for parts for it so can't really work on it a lot. Hopefully it comes out looking spiffy :) Nope, not going to mention what it is yet.

On its way

AF is on its way. I was getting worried there for a minute. I was expecting to start spotting the day before and that didn't happen. I'm glad it didn't b/c it meant DH and I could have a bit of fun.
But it's starting now. Not a flow yet, but it's getting there.
I can't wait to get this going already!
Who knew I'd be so excited to start getting needles poked in to me again!

So... yeah...

Really nothing to report on honestly.
My last provera was yesterday, so the wait is on for AF to show up.
I've been having some twinging and fluttering going on down there, but it could be intestinal as well since lord knows I do have a problem with that (thanks metformin :\)

Uhm what else.. Nothing else has really been going on. I've been working on our masks for te wedding at the end of the month. Just ot done with my uber tacky girly mask. It's not quite how I imagined it, but it's fun. I think I'm going to def wear the zombie mask though. I just really like it and think it came out great. Although it does hurt my nose and it's going to mess my hair up lol.

I'll post photos of both probably tomorrow along with DH's mask.

Meds

Got my meds today.
1 vial of microdose HCG. I guess it's the same thing as the low dose stuff just premixed. It's only 100u so I guess they're hoping I respond in 10 days or less. MAN I hope so!
I also got some more needles and a 300 and 600u vials of follistim. Sigh... thank goodness for some insurance coverage. Stuff is SO damn expensive. I just hope this is the last time we need this for at least a few years heh.

Oh off topic for a sec. I have to type this dream out.
I had a weird dream last night where it was 2 billion years in to the future. People were still around on Earth, but the sun was dying. It wasn't going super nova or anything, it was simply just dwindling out. I remember in the dream being in a plaza with a bunch of other people and looking up in to the sky watching the light from the sun extinguish, it looked like a giant rock in the sky (how we still saw it *shrugs*), and the sky darkened.
Everyone starts freaking out and ships start leaving Earth. BUT there isn't enough room on the ships for everyone to escape before Earth is unable to support life any longer.
So the governments of the world decide to pretty much randomly pick people to murder by tattoos that appear on their bodies.
Almost everyone has these weird tribal looking tattoos show up on different parts of their body, and depending on how they look determines if you get to leave or die.
I get a tattoo along with a few of my friends. We're not sure which is which, so we're trying to find some way to fool whoever so we can leave. In the end, some professor guy gives us these small vials of liquid to drink that will show us as being cleared to leave the planet. And then I woke up. heh

And yep, as you can see, I have a bunch to talk about lol. It's why I haven't been posting that often. Just nothing going on.
4 more days of provera to go though. Woo :)

RE Consult

Just got home.
So, the RE gave me my provera prescription! YAY! We still need to go pick it up, but WOOT WOOT! *happy dance*
So happy he's not making us wait.

He mainly just talked about what causes miscarriages. How 'they' don't really know the causes most of the time. Blood tests that could be done, but in his opinion weren't really necessary ever. Specially since this was just my first m/c. Etc etc. Pretty basic.

Also, once he knew that we wanted to do injection cycle again, he told us the plan was to start me on 100u of follistim. It's only 25u more than what I started on before. Not too thrilled with that, BUT at this point, I would do another shitty 19 days of getting jabbed with needles just to have the chance again.