Losing Hope

Sigh... BFN again. I can't help but feel like this is never going to happen. My heartaches for this and breaks every time it's just a single line.
Doesn't help that I had a terrible dream. It started off kind of like a thriller/suspense type, but in the dream, I wanted to take an HPT before we left the house.
So I go to pee in the cup, and when I wipe, there is blood all on it. I keep trying to tell myself that I could still have a chance, but I know deep down that it's over.

I hate dreams like that. They really suck the life out of you when you wake up.

I don't think I'll be getting my BFP this time :( My boobs are barely hurting any more. I know you can't go by just that, but *shrugs*