Saturday, November 12, 2011

Lost control

I need to get my eating under control. I've just been so bad these last few days.
I need to go super strict w/ my carbs again. Start logging everything. That's the only way I'm going to start eating better again.

Doc's office apparently called on Thursday and left a message, but we never got it. So I called yesterday and the RE called me finally at around 4:30.
My hcg actually came back a 2, but he seemed fine with that. Just told me the test he wants to do now and I'm supposed to call in on Monday to schedule that.
Better if I do that. The 2 times that the RE told me to come in before, the staff had NO idea b/c he forgot to say anything to anyone else so I had to wait while every other patient was seen.

cd 16 and still no +opk. I don't think it's going to happen. I'm not feeling anything on my right side any longer. Must've just been a cyst.

Dinner last night was ok. My neice is SO cute. Her eyes are lightening up to a light blue color. It's easier to see her now. Still makes me long for my own and sad that we could've had a baby by now, but I don't think those feelings will ever go away. At least now I don't feel like crying at the drop of a hat.

1 comment:

Lisa Marie said...

The last 2 days I've devoured horrible calories! Horrible Horrible! It's easy to slip off & even easier to keep going with it. Just jump back on, I need to too!

The feelings never go away. At least they didn't for me. Mike's oldest nephew will be 6 in January & I still wish & think he should've been ours(same DD & he looks exactly like my husband). I still can't believe how many people have had babies since we started trying & 75% of those were "whoops". It sucks, it plain sucks! And I think the closer the people are to you, the harder it is. If you dislike the person in the first place, it makes it extra hard. So I feel ya girl, I totally feel ya!