Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Away We Go

Has anyone seen that movie? ((CONTAINS SPOILERS SO DON"T READ MORE IF YOU DON"T WANT THE MOVIE SPOILED IN THIS CERTAIN PART I"M ABOUT TO TALK ABOUT))

Just got it from Netflix and watched it tonight.
Man, when they go to Montreal to visit their friends. The part where they're in the bar. First, when the wife of the friend starts talking to the pregnant chick. And just that all to knowing look she gives.
And then when she starts performing on stage, and her husband mentions that she just had her 5th miscarriage and he starts talking about it.
Man, just broke my heart.
I've never had a m/c that I know of, but just the infertility part. Not being able to have a baby.... just rips you up inside.

I really want to get back to trying again. I'm beginning to get jealous of the ladies on the forums that I go to. Not anyone that I'm in a buddy group with. I actually enjoy reading their experiences.
I'm talking about the rest of them. I'm just feeling so jealous and left out. Like I'm in a race and being left behind.
I want to try again. I want there to be a chance... I want my ovaries to fucking work already.
I thought exercising would help keep my mind off of TTC, which is kind of has, but as the year quickly comes to an end.... my impatience is growing once again.

1 comment:

unaffected said...

I've seen the movie, and that part really made me tear up. I've never had a m/c either, but this whole thing is just so damn hard.

I know what you mean about feeling jealous and left out. I'm still trying, but not getting anywhere.

***big internet hugs***